My sleeping beauty...

My bf came by with the nachos like I was mumbling about earlier. The entire time here outside of dinner he pretty much was asleep until 3AM where he went home. He was borrowing his oma's car like usual. So, yeah, he had to return it. Not sure why he slept here so long,  I'm assuming lack of sleep, but it's comforting to have my person with me.  I got sleep too finally. Last night just was NOT sleep friendly.

I've been writing this entry eating wasabi peas... my eyes are watering and my sinuses are clear. lol

P.S. I still have a drawing commission, yes, but the person changed their mind and needs to think of what I should draw.

A funny Animal Crossing video.... plus revenge~!

 

Watch on YouTube

Watch on YouTube

SKILL ISSUES and being a small time gaming streamer on le You of the Tube. + More

Meowdy. I need to read more blogs. I prefer to read small paragraphs... I'm pretty dyslexic. I really hate it. I even write letters out of order often. I know what I mean but derp. And verbally I forget words and I can't really spur of the moment get stuff out a lot.

Sometimes I'm Tarzan and everyone else is freaking Jane. Then on that occasion that I find another Tarzan... we just get it. It's weird that stumbling with others is so easy to understand.

Also, when someone points and says meow I have to guess a few times what they want... but knowing the person well it goes alright. xD Boyfriend. Though tbh he articulates quite well. I tend to write more fluently than speaking.

My mom doesn't understand that texting is so much easier for me. Intimidating people are hard to talk to. Even people I REALLY look up to are sometimes hard to get my drivel out to. Maybe my boyfriend is my animu sempai. LOL

I can be weebish and a straight up dork.... but nope, not anywhere near some LOL cows out there.

On occasion I am cringe on purpose for laughs. I'm luckily not 100 percent oblivious. Somewhat though.

A lot of the time chatting with people online I play dumb cause I either don't want to disagree and start crap or I legit just can't openly say something is cringe to be nice. A Youtuber has to have grace and composure. I mean, there are moments streamers try to avoid (like the Pewdiepie thing) but yeah...

I uphold an image of my catgirl mascot. I tend to meow on accident though when I don't want to. xD I think my fanbase as far as gaming is probably only males about college age that are far from normie. Despite that, they are great.

...

Until they come in my streams asking if I'm a girl and if I'll jump in a bounce house with them... wtf... muted.

Also... I had an hour phone call with Tamatomo today. She's done with social media. Likely a healthy thing... but wow. We chatted and caught up. I never really get to chat with her because mom is home and I feel uncomfortable even breathing or my boyfriend is an attention hog. xP She wants our conversations just us and that is cause he butt in on our talks so much. Now he says to ignore her... I only see him weekends and maybe sporadically throughout the week. So... I kinda get it.

Living with a person really changes dynamic. I hope I can be the trad waifu and learn to cook. And with more space than a tiny room I want to organize better so I can get around to clean. Ofc, in return he'd do the lawn or fix stuff. A bit old fashioned, but that's how we are. This will be MUCH more easy for me than a job since I'm really bad at practically everything. ._.;

I failed job placement. And nowadays after knee surgery and stress hormone keeping weight on that I gained after... eep.

Plus I need my meds to function and me and my boyfriend combined with a job and me losing medicaid cause I have a job and not having my meds then getting back on medicaid again.... yeah, no.

But till he gets a place... all I can spare is 30 percent my income and that won't afford me jack outside of independent living or a section 8 voucher. At least if I give my BF 30 percent my income and if he has a job and we can get a trailer or something it'll be something to look forward to in the future.

He's having issues getting a job. He may be picky with the kind of work restricting himself. Plus the no vehicle thing. He'd need a work vehicle or scheduled around borrowing his oma's vehicle.

The other day, opa mentioned my boyfriend inheriting the house for us to live in... that STILL costs money even if it is paid for. I don't think opa or oma will pass soon. When I was my boyfriend's age, my grandparents passed. But they were also older at that age.

Crackerjack boxes without a little prize triggers my fossil bones.

Soooo.... My headset was acting ass last month. I totally bought a new one. My bf took the old one assuming they could be headphones at least probably. THEY WORKED AGAIN. Welp...

Also I bought new glasses. KerCHOW! More bank drainage.

Now I'm getting his birthday gift the next month cause my dumb ass needed to get the headset and the glasses. -w-;;

It's either Diablo 4 or Street Fighter 6. Depends on if my buddies got SF6 yet for the most part. And EITHER way I want both games. So yeah.

Now he's pissy I bought a few items AFTER his birthday that would not have equaled either game. Either way is a nope.

I DID take him to Five Below to get him a squishmallow buddy though and gave him an IOU. I feel like butt cause I originally wasn't gonna grab glasses to get his gift but he TALKED ME INTO IT. -w-

Also, I got a commission to pay for my last week of food for the month. I need to be careful with those expensive energy drinks and get the Mio Energy for water. >.> Plus I been buying him sodas a lot when out...

I still feel like crap.

I hear her entering the condo... Oh no...

I have dishes in my room. Because every time I leave my room my mom talks to me. Usually just complaining. If it was venting, sure, I don't mind when someone needs to vent. But she does passive (sometimes aggressive) manipulation and insinuates stuff. And wearing headphones and minding my own business whilst doing the dishes is the 8th deadly sin.