Inferiority...

[mimitchigotchi]

I have no self esteem, a lot of worry, and an extreme inferiority complex. Any time I make a mistake, especially with a loved one involved, I automatically feel awful for it and think of the worst punishment that could happen and feel like it literally is happening. Maybe it's a symptom of PTSD. I dunno. I'll start rambling and catastrophizing and panicking. My mind wanders off thinking that I'd be best not even existing because I feel like I'm a total burden.