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mimitchigotchiThursday I was supposed to have a Medicaid ride to go to CVS for my medicine. It was cancelled and so was my appointment with the gyn on Friday. Why? My bf's idiotic mom again. She got totally drunk and started to harass him in the other room so he decided to go to me in my room and let her cool her jets. Not that easy. She kept on and on. So, he got oma to pick us up. I'm going home tomorrow. Hopefully she ran out of money for booze again. This is getting old.
She also harassed oma and me on text again as usual. She banned my bf from visiting the apartment cause he supposedly got into her face and she could have called the cops according to her. He didn't even touch her. Oma said she used to call the police so much to whine about her ex-husband after instigating him that he lost his job with the military and he only had a few years to retire. Oma said he shoved her a few times but I think that was in defense cause I can imagine her getting violent. I can't say for sure he never hit her but he's in a long lasting relationship now and if he was abusive I don't think that would be the case.
I'm behind on my trulicity shot almost a week. I have a ride set up for Monday to go to the pharmacy. I had to cancel a physical therapy appointment for that. Plus I'm out of IBS medicine and I can't poop again... at least it's not psyche meds... hopefully not ever. I've found that missing a dose or two can cause my psychosis to flare up. I don't need that especially in an unstable situation.
Also, my bf's mom the other day found out I was going to CVS because I guess my bf mentioned that I was going out on a Lyft (the one that got cancelled). She asked me why I didn't ask her for help getting it. She said as long as she wasn't working it was fine. After a contradictory nasty text message a while ago about never helping me to get medicine or anything I need ever again I quit asking. I only ever asked because my bf said I should ask her because he nor my mom could help at the time and that I'm not too ask his grandparents. It was before I knew that I could also use the Medicaid cab for pharmacies. Maybe she's mad that I don't need her so she can play that she is so helpful to look good later. Who knows. Her mind is so twisted. I only know that kind of behavior and how to handle it better than I used to from getting therapy on trying to deal with my own narcissistic mother. Unfortunately I had issues using those skills with my mom.
She's not even got friends due to drama she caused them all over Facebook. She's the reason nobody wants to ever be near her. She's never invited to Thanksgiving or Christmas anymore for a reason. Oma feels bad that she can't invite her because when she does nobody else wants to visit.
I need out of that apartment. It's awful. I thought about streaming video games on Thursdays again with my friends. I'm too scared to sound like I'm having any fun around her because she seethes. She says all I do is play video games in my room and that she has a job so I need to make the apartment spotless. I can't even get on my knees to scrub in the tub because of my awful pain. I've looked into handicapped apparatuses to clean but I never have money for cleaning products. I did ask her kindly to purchase cleaning products better for asthma and skin issues. Ofc not. She said I don't like bleach and rubbed it in. Sorry that not everyone is the same and some people have allergies. Sorry that I can't afford a rag on a rod to sit in my folding chair and scrub the shower. I'm doing good to stand there and do big piles of dishes. Sometimes in a few sessions because I need rest from standing.
If I could find subsidized housing that takes 30 percent of my income for rent i probably could afford my own cleaning supplies and not be only able to leave my room to do anything while someone is at work or with protection from my bf. Without my bf allowed to visit until she gets over her funk I'll be easier to bully. ;(
She also harassed oma and me on text again as usual. She banned my bf from visiting the apartment cause he supposedly got into her face and she could have called the cops according to her. He didn't even touch her. Oma said she used to call the police so much to whine about her ex-husband after instigating him that he lost his job with the military and he only had a few years to retire. Oma said he shoved her a few times but I think that was in defense cause I can imagine her getting violent. I can't say for sure he never hit her but he's in a long lasting relationship now and if he was abusive I don't think that would be the case.
I'm behind on my trulicity shot almost a week. I have a ride set up for Monday to go to the pharmacy. I had to cancel a physical therapy appointment for that. Plus I'm out of IBS medicine and I can't poop again... at least it's not psyche meds... hopefully not ever. I've found that missing a dose or two can cause my psychosis to flare up. I don't need that especially in an unstable situation.
Also, my bf's mom the other day found out I was going to CVS because I guess my bf mentioned that I was going out on a Lyft (the one that got cancelled). She asked me why I didn't ask her for help getting it. She said as long as she wasn't working it was fine. After a contradictory nasty text message a while ago about never helping me to get medicine or anything I need ever again I quit asking. I only ever asked because my bf said I should ask her because he nor my mom could help at the time and that I'm not too ask his grandparents. It was before I knew that I could also use the Medicaid cab for pharmacies. Maybe she's mad that I don't need her so she can play that she is so helpful to look good later. Who knows. Her mind is so twisted. I only know that kind of behavior and how to handle it better than I used to from getting therapy on trying to deal with my own narcissistic mother. Unfortunately I had issues using those skills with my mom.
She's not even got friends due to drama she caused them all over Facebook. She's the reason nobody wants to ever be near her. She's never invited to Thanksgiving or Christmas anymore for a reason. Oma feels bad that she can't invite her because when she does nobody else wants to visit.
I need out of that apartment. It's awful. I thought about streaming video games on Thursdays again with my friends. I'm too scared to sound like I'm having any fun around her because she seethes. She says all I do is play video games in my room and that she has a job so I need to make the apartment spotless. I can't even get on my knees to scrub in the tub because of my awful pain. I've looked into handicapped apparatuses to clean but I never have money for cleaning products. I did ask her kindly to purchase cleaning products better for asthma and skin issues. Ofc not. She said I don't like bleach and rubbed it in. Sorry that not everyone is the same and some people have allergies. Sorry that I can't afford a rag on a rod to sit in my folding chair and scrub the shower. I'm doing good to stand there and do big piles of dishes. Sometimes in a few sessions because I need rest from standing.
If I could find subsidized housing that takes 30 percent of my income for rent i probably could afford my own cleaning supplies and not be only able to leave my room to do anything while someone is at work or with protection from my bf. Without my bf allowed to visit until she gets over her funk I'll be easier to bully. ;(
