Am I bonkers or are you or is it both of us?!?

[mimitchigotchi]

*decides a thing.*

Oh, you never want to do anything. You're making up being unavailable now that I am you to do something.

 

My thoughts: The thing that was decided before being asked to do anything. Not saying it out loud means any reason that fits the situation can be made up even if it's not true? That doesn't make sense. I have independent thought.

 

"It always happens when I want to do something."

 

Because I'm always freaking stressed out and the only reason I'm not in a psychiatric hospital sometimes is not being a danger or hallucinating. My psychiatrist has me on some heavy medicine that I wasn't even on living with my crappy mother.

 

This is NOT how I want my life to be. I don't want to be in this living situation. I'm in it for a person that can not respect that I need out of this apartment for my health. 

 

Chronic stress is why I don't want to do anything anymore. Help me out of this situation. If not I will probably go psychotic from the stress. I'm going to lose my freaking mind.

 

Too bad if I try to say any of this I'm lying. Why do I always have the absolute worst assumed about me? Why does everything I do and say have a reason or motive that doesn't match who I even am? Why are you so warped?!?!