The Endless Quest for Happiness

So, my boyfriend's mom is FINALLY in the behavioral health hospital.  It was a long time coming.  Full on delusional. Paranoid. Hearing stuff. Seeing things.  I have schizophrenia myself, so if she has it I wouldn't at all be surprised.  When I was in the psyche facility for other behavior, not the schizophrenia, I saw people with it and was super intimidated by some of them. 

Also, I found out that she's been carrying around a knife. Pretty unsettling.  Before my bf and Oma came to pick me up, his mom closed us both in my room.  I'm glad that I didn't do anything too quickly or say the wrong thing. I mean, I've been pretty terrified of her...

I'm going to lots of doctors. I'm trying to do a weight loss surgery program so I need LESS doctors. 

I've been kinda not updating here much. Just the same stuff all the time. Nothing looking promising for anything related to where to live right now. 

I hope my bf gets a job. I just want to be with him. I can't live with many kinda people with the really bad autism. Especially when the person is like my bfs mom. 

She harassed me so bad the other day and made me leave the apartment or else she said she'd keep on all night. I was in my room all day being quiet and she had to be mean again. 

I'm so tired of being harassed. She said I'm lazy for not having a job. Maybe she lashed out cause she just lost her job again. -_- Excuse me for having disabilities that keep me from barely being able to take care of myself alone. Yeah, I can really get a job. 

I feel bad for my bf. He's basically talking care of me to a degree because I'm not able to handle most tasks outside of super basic stuff. I don't even know much about cooking without it being microwavable. I keep learning so slow... I can take my meds out and make doctor's appointments and get rides through my insurance to the appointments. I can't drive but I can get groceries delivered now that COVID opened up more delivery options. I guess I'm doing okay to a degree... I still need a social worker to understand a lot of paperwork though. 

Ngl, my grandparents taught me how to do a lot of that cause they knew I'd be disabled my whole life....

I moved away from my mother because she is an abusive narcissist. Unfortunately, I moved in with my boyfriend's mother, who is also an abusive narcissist. 
In other news, my boyfriend's mother now has a DUI because of her usual being irresponsible. Now that she has a job at the thrift store, which is great, she has to get there somehow. So that's going to be the problem now.

Just gonna cancel getting carpal tunnel surgery and suffer until I move out. I'm not able to let everyone's dishes pile up so I'll just keep doing them in pain.

My roommate (bfs mom) was gonna mop the floor and got a phone call. The literal only thing she had wet so far was the floor outside my room. With bleach. Which I've told her I'm allergic to. I started smelling it and my nose was running, eyes were watery, and my throat was irritated plus I got nauseous. I put on my shoes, thank goodness cause I'm allergic to the touch and fumes both, and evacuated the apartment a while... I saw a cute lizard out there though so there was that.

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I need to work on another commission... I've been having issues finding time that works for me to continue the art.

Updates...

My roommate still has no job. 
Oma and Opa paid her rent again.
Roommate's weed smoking loser still basically lives here.

.w. Also... I might visit the food bank... I'm gonna call my social worker.

Uhh... My roommate was just released from jail randomly...???? Unexpected.

So... Also, I got discharged from my mental health skill building today. I'll miss Ms. Delores.

Welp. A lot has happened since my last post. So, here goes...

My bf's mom is currently in jail. And of course there's a story to tell. Oh boy.

She hasn't been to work in 3 weeks. She said she wasn't feeling well and having stomach issues. My family just had a stomach bug as it was going around. I talked to her and she said she needed a doctor's note for work. 

Eventually a week passed without being able to get her to the doctor. She was making excuses for not going. Mainly stomach aches and not wanting to mess the car.

She kept making excuses and people kept bugging her but we couldn't even get her to answer about anything. Everyone legit thought she lost her job and isn't telling us. (Yeah, she has to have lost it though we never got the official confirmation.)

At the end of about the 3rd week, she kept coming to my door and asking if I was okay. It increasingly got more frequent and even at 3am. Even leaving my room she followed me around and asked. I started feeling something off. 

She has a drug history so I thought maybe she was high or drunk at first and told my bf and oma but about 3am I woke from her rattling my door knob asking if I was okay. I texted my bf and he agreed it was weird but I fell asleep and I'm the morning I woke up and started my day. She kept asking if I was okay. I knew definitely something was really really weird.

A bit later I was talking to my buddy, Tamatomo, on the phone. During the call she knocked on my door and insisted I answer about something or other so I got it the phone and my bf's mom said there was talking. I told her I was on the phone with my friend.

She said the room was set up weird. I had been cleaning my jewelry box and she mentioned the mirror on it facing the door area. She looked under my bed and all around saying she knew people were in there.

At that point, I kept telling my bf and oma stuff was really wrong. A bit later she had asked oma to pick her up cause she wasn't feeling well. Oma and Opa came and picked her up.

She stayed overnight at oma and opa's and was very paranoid and saying that ppl were stalking her and she heard ppl coming in and out of the apartment that weren't. She even threw out her phone cause agents were tracking her supposedly.

In the morning oma got her in the car to go to the hospital. Almost to the hospital she jumped out the car and took oma's phone. She ran off and went missing. 

The GPS tracker was used for finding oma's phone but it was stationary and she has ditched it. She was lost... Police found her but couldn't do anything as she wasn't doing anything illegal. At least then.

She was missing. Frantic phone calls were made but she's over 18. Hard to do anything. But eventually she got arrested for disruption at the DMV of all places. 

Last I heard jail was going to evaluate her mental health...

I had to have help with rent. I dunno what's gonna happen... or how long she'll be gone. If she is even okay. 

Just woke up from having a nightmare about my boyfriend's mom harassing me. My chest is still pounding. And I have to go back to that environment. Just like before with my own mom giving me nightmares... My chest hurts. Actually, it's been hurting lately in general.

Just when I thought I was free....

My bf's mom rarely cleans and doesn't buy her own food and just leeches from everyone... 

Plus we got a noise complaint cause her dumb music and TV and we may be evicted.

And I saw a roach yesterday.

Yuck!!!!! 🤢

Plus my bf's mom's bf is also lazy and a gangster looking type and makes me uncomfortable.